September 2012
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Hey everyone! I’m just doing a random post I guess idk lol. For once kinda feeling good even though I’m tired. Being a new mom is very challenging but it does have its rewards.
So far my lil angel is 2 months & 6 days old <3
Everything with her seems to be going smooth except the normal gas issue now that will get this youngin cranky! Normally the infant gas relief helps but...
FINALLY!!!!!
Long time no freaking post like OMG!!!! Lol
No seriously I’m glad to finally be able to get on to make a post even tho its months than I intended. Due to gettin tired of fighting to get any computer time thanks to my bratty ass 12 year old cousin & the city’s library’s stupid lock over tumblr, is why I haven’t been posting. (which I’m sure none have missed my...
August 2012
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July 2012
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Counting down
Really glad to finally get on to make a post. Been on edge a lot for almost the past week, specially today. See last week me & the baby daddy went down south to see the high risk baby doctor & got the day set for when our daughter will finally arrive in this horrid world which is for the 16th of July :)
When the doctor asked how that day was I had such a foggy daze it felt like the time...
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Happy July 4th!!!!!.........Not >:/
Hope everyone had a good Forth of July yesterday. Full of grilled food, fireworks, fun, & celebrating our freedom with friends & family.
(Hate to honestly say this but I can’t for the love of myself, which isn’t much anymore, remember if yesterday represented when Lincoln & all the guys signing the the Declaration of Independence lmao. There’s too many days like this...
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I don’t know whats wrong with me right now. Too many thoughts in my head bout how things were the other day between me & the ex & then sadly slipped & broke a promise that he doesn’t know bout.
Me & him had another night talkin in person which led up to more innocent, meanful little kisses on either of our cheeks or my forehead. I asked him more bout was there part of...
June 2012
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Rather pissed off. Have been since last night cause stupid me had to ask my ex when his damn bitch was coming back & he said next week that he was pickin her up & taking her back. It pisses me off that she’s coming back when she JUST fucking left some time last week & especially pisses me off he went back on his word as usual bout not leaving to see her or she was bringing her...
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Welp today was an epic fail bout wondering am I ok with stuff in my sad story of the battle for my love with someone. Hadn’t been talking for days. & may have found more that the reason he likes her more is because she’s not posting everything on facebook like I do, how I apparently have my life revolved around the site so that may give him another reason of why he may not want me...
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Been rather stressful the past few days. Getting ready for the shower one of my cousin’s were throwing me & then dealing with my grandmother’s childish attention seeking crap.
The shower was a success! It was a small little gathering with people I enjoyed. I was a nervous wreck though. I’m not use to being put in the spotlight basically haha. Which I’m glad no more...
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The past few days after my last post has been just ugh. Same shit different day as usual in my pathetic point of view of my life. Been busy trying to get addresses together for three separate baby showers that way no one will feel left out, trying to figure out what else I need for her, & the usual drama with the father.
The other day was just emotional & for once he didn’t cause...
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Trying to get a hold of my thoughts on here than on facebook before an argument starts up or at least control my anger a lil better or much less prevent it from happening.
Yesterday some friends needed some help to pick up someone up north. Well I didn’t mind but I needed to get my bumper back on my car properly since I accidentally ripped it off pulling out my parents driveway. Everything...
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Seahorses are better in my opinion
Happy Father’s Day to all the guys who have kids by their side, kids on the way, & sadly kids who had past way. Even to the guy’s who may not have kids but still act like a father to those who don’t have one in their lives.
I may not have the perfect dad cause there have been times I wish he wasn’t mine, but he is, I act like him in some ways, & I sure enough...
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To be safe than sorry
Today I’m finally 33 weeks which is 8 months and a week? LOL! Last night up to this morning I started having bad cramps in my abdomen every 5 minutes if not even that, I was restless & anxious as hell again, & then eventually my lower back was hurting. I tried cleaning my room to get the restless feeling to go away & also make me tired so I could go to bed. Psh, between what...
This is my daughter’s heart beating &...
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Just here...
Since my last post things seem a little settled kinda???
Went to the casino in Atmore, Alabama after my last post a few days ago, to play for the 1st time since turning 21. I roughly played 23 dollars & came home with a little over 80 dollars haha. Not bad for my 1st try.
Came back into town & the ex wanted me to come over so I did at 1 something in the morning. We chilled watchin...
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Well today hasn’t been no better & still feel unaccomplished & very defeated. I know I said I’d try to move on but I realize I don’t need another relationship that would be nothing but stressful than what I’m in now. I mean I’d have another guy getting pissed at me for still being involved with the ex only because of my daughter, & I don’t want...
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Guess I'm done trying
Last night up to this morning has went to hell after all the work I’ve been trying to avoid from happening. Found out lies that had been said & knowing from there that the future of my family is gone for sure.
I went all day not hearing anything from the ex/baby daddy. Near one I had one of my friends call askin have I heard anything & I said no, then he told me that the ex &...
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Just ugh.....
Last night I wanted to write so bad but due to the time & who was on the computer, it was rather impossible. Plus when I write I’d rather be by myself so I can concentrate better.
The night before things were great like always but rather confusing. The ex/baby daddy was listening to break up songs practically & I noticed the horrible pic of him & the bitch kissing was gone...
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Pregnancy's fault or what?
The past few days I swear I’ve been nothing but emotional & depressed. I don’t know what the hell is wrong & people around here haven’t helped by no means. I’m 31 weeks & 7 days now along in my pregnancy so of course I’m gonna feel like this, but this week been really hard.
We’ve had Vacation Bible School this week at the church I rarely attend to...
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"Sexist & unfair..."
Okay here’s another post of something thats not my screwed up fight for love haha. My grandmother gets the Reader’s Digest in the mail every month. Well I read through it myself especially the Ask Laskas column. I love reading advice columns cause a few years ago I did want to have my own to help others, but instead I’m the one asking for advice these days lol.
I was reading...
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To speak or not to speak, that is the problem :/
Surprisingly things have been going well between me & the ex/baby daddy. No, we’re not back together for he & the witch is still together even though she’s in another state :/
We haven’t really been fighting which is REALLY good. The only time I remember we did was last week near the weekend over her & her possible infidelity, which I STILL think is happening despite...
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Everyone's worst nightmare, other's dream come...
Okay like I said the internet been down the past few days so I’ve been out of the loop about ALOT of stuff lately. I’ve caught bits & pieces through my phone when I was scanning through my friend’s feed over Facebook. At first I was thinking no this is just mess people who got really bored so they had to spice up the web a little.
Well clearly I was wrong after seeing more...
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Really been needing to get my useless voice out so bad the last couple of days but couldn’t due to internet problems around here. But its back up running so now I can continue screaming my opinions of how I’m getting really tired of not being heard by that dumbass I wish I could stop loving if I knew this battle to make him see & realize the stuff going on would obviously fail.
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May 2012
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Rant but not the usual one
Omg this still irritates me. Me & my grandmother got into it a few hours ago. I honestly don’t know what her deal was. One moment we were fine-ish but I had said something bout what my mom said bout taking her to the doctor tomorrow in another town thats 30 miles away I guess. I guess me quoting my mom, “I’ll take her in my car if I have to do it…” I’m...
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Ugh
Since last night I’ve been bothered still by some more news that I was told dealing with my exs two faced girlfriend fooling around with her ex. I’m annoyed he believes nothing is going on but we both know how her ex is & I got to thinkin for if she could lie to my face bout them kissing one time while me & him were going through a break & hiding her feelings about him...
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Survey :D
When I was on myspace I would do surveys so much it was sad cause thats how bored I was but it was fun. I might just do some if not alot on here now lol. So I found this one on my cousins tumblr site, thanks Nicole :)
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Whats your middle name? Victoria
How big is your bed? currently twin but ready to get my queen back damn it!!!.
What are you...
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Somewhat progress
Last night was the 1st time I was around my ex/baby daddy since last Tuesday when we went to see the high risk baby doctor. It was nice we just sat in the car chillen, eating a very late dinner for both of us & just talked a little.
He wasn’t mad with me anymore for budding in his life I suppose or else we wouldn’t have been around each other for like 2 hours.
I had told him...
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Just don't know...
My heart hurts from telling the one I love about something that a friend told me of the person he’s with seeing her ex. It hurts to know that he apparently has known this may have been going on & I guess he doesn’t care that she’s going behind him doing this to him when she’s suppose to be faithful. Why be with someone you know isn’t doing you right if...
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Weird dream
Last night I finally had a dream about my daughter. It was really weird. I had been having issues with the pregnancy due to her rough movements & I don’t know what all else besides somewhat pain & cramps. My stomach was so swollen from her that was one of the reasons I was having problems I guess. She was pressing against my skin so hard I could actually see the outline of her face....
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Okay here’s another rant basically. About the same shit just on a different day.
Obviously letting him come to me or just talk first isn’t gonna happen as long as that hepher is out of school. Yesterday she was & he had another day off from work. Which is expected I know since I don’t matter anymore to him, but what honestly pisses me the hell off is even tho our child...
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How is someone like me suppose to feel or muchless handle knowing that they were part of the reason why they’re not with the person that they love? Pushed the person away into liking someone else who they’re with now with a chance that they may actually make it like we once did if not longer?
Honestly it makes me feel like shit. I know not all of it is my fault but no matter what I...
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I have a question for ANYONE, male or female, that could answer this.
If you been in a relationship with someone on & off for more than two years, ya’ll aren’t together anymore now & the other is with someone else, & that person tells you that its hard to be around you due to emotional feelings still there, how are you able to take that in?
This is what was said to me...
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Trying to feel better
First off I’d like to say Happy Mother’s Day to all the actual mothers & soon-to-be mothers (like myself) out there. Now I also can’t exclude the ones that have lost children before getting the chance to be moms but they still count too!!!
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Now even though today is suppose to be a happy day, I’m honestly not feeling...
Just some words from a broken heart
Been awhile that I posted anything. Last thing I did say was a jumbled up announcement of the discovery of my beautiful daughter back in December or maybe January was when I made the post idk lol. Well the only good thing I have to share is that my daughter is growing happily & that she should be out the oven around late July. I’ll be 28 weeks this Saturday & sadly don’t look...
April 2012
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December 2011
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Scary News!!!
Ok haven’t been on here for awhile!! Well if I didn’t break my laptop I wouldn’t have to wait to get on someone else’s computer haha. But anywho the 18th of Dec. I went to the ER for the hives. Didn’t get no help on that cause of the news that I’m pregnant! I’m probably closin in on two months now. Been wantin one but knew couldn’t exactly have a...
July 2011
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Mediacom commercial & 90's Nick Jr. commercial
Ok now that I’m on an actual computer I can make a post of this. It may be pointless but dang it I wanna do it haha. A couple weeks ago, I was sitting on my bed watching tv like ever other day of my boring lil life till this mediacom commercial came on & it was with a dude playing a guitar & singing this lil song called “Get Happy” that sound slightly similar to a color...
